If you know me, you are part of my story.
Our lives are not lived independent of the world around us; rather, they are connected and strung together to weave our human story. Each word spoken, glance given, or space shared become part of the narrative. The story is being written, will you choose to direct your narrative or leave it up to chance?
We are writing this story for ourselves, our family, our friends, acquaintances, co workers, and the passers-by. Likewise, a story is being written on us. All of the people in our life are adding to who we are. So many aspects of this life are imprinting into our being; our environment, our homeland, our climate, our culture, these are all peripheral investors into our development.
I’ve been asking a lot of questions lately about why I am the way I am, why I believe what I believe, and why I react the way I do to certain situations. What is it that establishes the core of who I am? I’m not sure how eloquently I can dive into these in this blog, but I would like to share some of the beginnings.
Let me start by sharing the lyrics to a song I had written about four years ago:
To know a story, counting the days passed
Remember the ways and the paths tread
If you could see inside, what I hide
Darkness there, leads only to despair
But the one who brings light, brings sight to the blind
Brings life inside, opened my eyes
No longer reeling
Recounting struggles, remembering defeat
If I grow, then I find liberty
Humility, whether or not I want it
Grace came to cover me
Peace granted to steady me
Every time I fall, you remind me
Of my name
Defined not by the failures, defined not by defeat
Every time I fall you remind me
There is more than we see
There is more that you’ve breathed
Every time I fall, you remind me
Of my name
This verse came about during a time of loss. This was not a loss in the sense of death, but rather a time of loss of self-identity; actually, this was probably the beginning of this existential line of thinking. I remember the words forming in my head as I walked the halls of my workplace. I was in my early thirties, and I was about five years into my new job, learning to raise two daughters, and reframing my understanding of my faith.
Time is a funny thing. Sometimes the days can creep along, and at the same time, the years can fly; which is why I believe that we need to make the most of the time that we do have. We were given life so that we can live. The time had flown by, and I needed to assess that I still “had the reins” so to speak on the direction and state of my life.
The verse above talks about knowing my name. This refers to how I am known. There may be many names we have, and I would like to know which are the names that are true. The story we write is being written…right…now. Today, take a moment to reflect on who you are, where you are headed, and the narrative you are writing.